latley.. i've wished so badly to be someone else. A happy person, one who experiences the world positively and joyously. Depression is such a challenge of the will. - not that im saying we can change depression. but my will to have an attitude that is not defeatest. Its difficult to find the beauty in life when inside your emotions are varying shades of grey. Lately .. Ive been trying to tell myself, that this depression is a challenge to my soul, to lean on God, establish value to the sanctity of life, and help others. Its so hard tho.

Does anyone ever feel like their heart is being cut with small delicate cuts? Its burning and aches but all you can do is continue through life because its invisible.