I signed on with a singles dating site to hopefully jump start my lack of dates. I know I have a lot to offer someone I'm just not meeting anyone and don't really want to do the whole bar scene. So thought I would do an internet dating site. I got a hit from a man that seems somewhat put together. He doesn't live to far from here and so I sent him a message. I do have a picture of me up so they are aware that I do have extra poundage on me. I am working on getting rid of it though. If he asked me about it I will be straight up honest with him about it. I'm not really ashamed of how I got to where I am now. I am learning to love myself looking at what I look like now. I mean sheesh I used to weigh 442lbs and now I weigh 239.4. I think that is an accomplishment. Yes I still have a ways to go but I have lost a person and a half. I need to enjoy that and not play it down. If it ever came time for him to see me naked I would have to explain the big ole scar that runs down my belly so might as well be open as to why I don't eat hardly anything. I am not ashamed I had the surgery because it saved my life.

But what to do if and when the guy wants to meet me for the first time? I know to meet him in a bright lit place and meet him there don't let him know where I live right away. But other than that what do I do? I haven't really been on a date so to speak just hanging out with Rex and I don't consider that a date.

Jan