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Old Jul 04, 2009, 09:17 PM
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Having an episode. had enough foresight to hand all my pills over to my mom. she doesn't understand. thinks I'm exaggerating. I'm mulling over my CBT workbook and trying to concentrate on the right path. I WOULD RATHER BE HERE. I feel like screaming that. I want a cigarette, but I know she doesn't support me smoking. I'm 23 years old and I don't even have the reigns to my own life. I don't know what I should be doing to make this okay. Graphing my life and watching it grow.
I called my pdoc, but he said to make an appointment and come in. I'm thinking about trying Geodon instead of Lamictal. Thoughts? I need something to keep my brain away from the negative.
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