Thanks justfloating!!! I just wish more people could understand...mainly my family. They understand but yet don't. I put on the happy face. My mom will send me text are you ok? I know if I say no it will put her into panic mode and or she will call and say...Why don't you do this or that. I know she means well I really do. As you said I can't help the way that I feel and it isn't my fault. I know that deep down, but still fight with it from time to time.

I'm sorry that your dad doesn't understand. Yeah everyone gets crabby and some people can control it , but we can't. We can try 100% or more. We don't want to do bad things, or hurt ourselves or any of that, but the depression takes over and it happens.

Thanks for the kind and reassuring words