Oh, to be able to fill that horrible empty, aching void in my chest! I do understand and wish I did not have that, but if I did not then I guess I also would not be me, as I am right now. So, yes, I would like to be someone else who doesn't feel that way. Seeing it as a challenge in life is one way to make it feel positive. I guess we all have to be stronger for what we have been, and are, going through.