Thank you for the replies. I often feel so lonely when dealing with my ocd. I talked to my husband this weekend about the ocd and how I am just going to "deal with it". I know that it is going to be with me for the rest of my life and I am ok with it. He was not really pleased with that. He said that it was like I had a "little devil" in me whispering in my ear saying "you can not destroy me or you will die". That it is hard for him allow me give in to this illness. There was one drug that had made my ocd lessen so much that it could have changed my life forever, however it also took away my sex life and I am not willing to give that up with a new marriage. I have yet to figure out how they think an anti-depressent will make a depressed person happy if it will make you fat and unable to have sex - duh! (smile) I dont know, that is just me I guess. Anyway I am done rambling. Thank you again for your comments. I am not sure where I was going with all of this. It has been been one of those those days.

~Dawn