Sweetie, paranoia is part of hypervigilance.......which is definitely a feature of BPD but also PTSD.......sometimes the lines are blureed....I spend little time wondering what it is part of......it just IS!!

I still to this day, have terrible nightmares about my son and my dog being hurt, I sleep with one eye open, I can hear a pin drop and I have the reflexes of a cat when I need to. I resent answering the phone, opening the mail and still listen to the tell tale click of my phone being tapped......I don't necessarily "suffer" from it anymore because I KNOW it and accept it. I also know the things that ultimately trigger it. i am chronically physically unwell so that makes the fear worse sometimes.

A funny story, when I wanted to get a dog(I LOVE chihuahuas!) My partner said to me "Why to we need a dog when we have you babe? You guard the house, mark your territory, bite strangers at the door and protect us with your life" I was very honoured to be compared to my canine friends! I love dogs......my baby Coco girl chihuahua and I monitor this house like a well oiled machine.......yep, i am hypervigilant.....

In will be in flux sweets.......embrace it and it will become a little less potent.......I know it can be terrifying, exhausting and just plain nuts, but it will come and go, ultimately go eventually

You take care of you and be kind to yourself.......