I'm sorry. I'd try to distract myself some other way. Like a project or TV. I like to bake when I have the energy. Anything. If nothing seems to help, try to contact your T or P-doc. Or call a friend. And keep writing us on the site. A lot of us feel like cutting in the depths of sadness. Whatever it takes to do something else healthy instead. I'm going to go clean my chinchilla cage. I'm super tired still, but it's not their fault. Feel better soon. I'll check back later. Take care of yourself.