I'm really depressed. I can barley get out of bed, but still have to go to work. I'm having bad thoughts. What is the point? I'm supposed to go to graduate school and now it just seems like too much work. I don't know what I want to do anymore. I'm done with my jobs, I can't do them anymore. The only thing I have to look forward is them finishing. But then it seems like everything is over. I feel so alone. None of my "friends" ever call me back. At what point do I decide that they aren't really friends since they never seem to put any effort in the relationship. But if i do that then I'll have like one friend. Its all just getting worse. I hate bad thoughts. It feels like I never get to enjoy life. I just want to be able to enjoy it for once. But I don't see it coming.