hi, welcome to PC! This is a great source of information and support, and I know you'll find lots of both on here.

Have you considered going to the doctor at all? The first step after realizing something might be wrong is figuring out how to deal with it, and seeing a professional will at least give you some kind of starting point. That being said, I know how terrified I was to see the doctor -- I put it off for months after I first started wondering if something might be wrong, and I put off going to therapy for even longer after that. Although getting help was the best thing I ever did for myself, I know what a huge step it is. I hope you keep posting and let us know how you're doing.