Hi Kaika, if you don't mind my two cents' worth:

The good news is that the real you is like that.

The even better news is that you've begun to notice.

The bad news is that stuff will keep getting in the way of experiencing and being the real you, and you'll need to keep working through it. I suspect you've already had a bit of practice in that area, though, so the bad news may not be all that bad.

----- Digression alert -----

I once knew two young musicians, women in their twenties performing together in public for the first time. They sounded and looked great but one of them complained afterwards that she'd been so nervous! "Great," I told her. "You both look utterly charming when you're nervous. Next time, don't forget to be nervous!" (, but only when she wasn't looking) Anyway, they were great next time too, and (not surprisingly) kidded me a little about reminding them to be nervous, and it all worked out fine.

----- / Digression -----

Something about the way you just came across, worrying about your ability to meet adult challenges, happened to remind me of the way they came across, worrying about their ability to play before an audience. Utterly charming, in both cases. Maybe you shouldn't forget to be nervous, either