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As a young girl I suffered a lot of a**e from various people
One of these people I decided to take to court
This all came about when I found out that my daughter had suffered at the hands of her cousin, I wanted to show her that
it is ok to stand up and tell someone and not as I did live in fear
but I guess I failed at this oh sure he went to court they made fun of me
as did my "family" but this was for my daughter so I did not care what they thought and in the process of all of this I discovered that the person I had called "father" well guess what he is not my "father'
Despite all that hurt like a bi**
Now my girl and I have a very unhealthy relationship she often tells me I do not listen to her that I never take an interest in her life etc etc
However when I do I am told where to go in no uncertain terms
and I feel like what is the point in my being here apart from the little respect I get from my son everyone here calls me names acusses me of things that are not true etc and yes I will be honest I get so frustrated and hurt and all I see is all that yesterday stuff in my face I lose it to
Last weekend she came home drunk and spent the night with her head in the toilet I do not agree with her drinking I have always tried to stop this she has been doing this for a couple years now but her father he does not care what I think or feel about it and he just goes and buys it for her
she asked me "if you knew I was being sick why did you not get up to check on me,Oh no wait you are to lazy to care"
I told her that if you choose to get drunk do not expect me to help you I have told you I disagree you are only 16yrs old she as well as my husband
are well aware that I my mother and her mother are or were alcholics but shes knows best she says just because you were does not mean I will
No it dosent but you have a higher chance of it but.
Sorry you know I want to walk away and not ome back ever but I cannot do that that would be breaking one of my own codes by which I live so I guess the best I can hope for is one day she and hubby will shut the f***** up and leave me alone.
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"Look at me, I'm a tangled puppet--I might be a mess, but I sure can survive."
--4 Non Blondes
"We don't create a fantasy world to escape reality, we create it to be able to stay."
--Lynda Barry
"Years Teach Us More Then Books"
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