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Old Jul 06, 2009, 01:11 PM
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It really helps to hear that others go through this too!

I keep telling my T that she is MEAN to me when she asks those hard questions. I actually asked her once "are you happy now, for making me cry?". She wasn't remotely comforting when she said no.... Of course that's only when I am dissociating.


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Originally Posted by notz View Post
Yes. With big revelations or unexpected pain especially when she asks me difficult questions.

I feel as if I am "sucked" out of the session and become an observer usually from above although it doesn't affect my visual perspective. (I seldom try to explain this to anyone because so few people have the capacity to understand!!). It almost feels as if I'm floating.

I have a hard time answering questions...it's as if the words get bogged down/are paralyzed and I can't get them to form out of my mouth. My pdoc/T (one in same) says that is indicative of trauma during a nonverbal time of life.

Mostly, I don't/can't talk and I usually cry too. At best, all I can do is try to describe what I'm feeling at that moment. Most often, I open my mouth but very little comes out.

I hope it helps to hear of something similar.
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