Yeh. It happens to me. I prefer the sessions when i don't because then i can leave feeling whole rather that a scambled mess! When i zone out, my eyes fixate on something, usually very faraway trees through the window and i feel as though i am out there with them, a long way away. At these times i'm not in the body sat in the chair. Usually my mind goes blank, i describe it as being white. It is like a movie is playing in my mind and i try and distract myself enough from it to answer questions but my thoughts are disconnected from my mouth and i find it hard to speak. One part of my mind is begging my therapist to bring me back down from flying away, but it is impossible for me to say this so as she continues to speak i try and grab onto something she says that will bring me back. I don't cry, i'm don't feel anything, i only watch from a distance....but it is still a very big screen that envelopes my mind and drowns everything else out. The irritating thing is that i can't stop this from happening, there isn't particular subjects that trigger it, one minute i'm here and the next i'm not.
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