((((idontknow))))
I wish I had some wonderful words to say that would lift you up and brighten your day. I do understand how you feel. But things will get better and the sadness will lift. Just take one day and one moment at a time. Keep reaching out and sharing what you feel. We do care and are listening. I know sometimes it is hard to find the words to say. It is hard to find any light. It is hard to see what we used to be able to see--but it is never gone--just hidden behind the cloud of depression.
I wish I could carry the sadness for you and give you a break so you could see the beauty once again. Know I am here and listening and understand. Remember that depression lies to us and tells us things can't get better. Just remember to breath slowly in and out. And know you have friends here that are walking with you through this time. I know fear and sadness--they are real--and they seem so close. Keep your head up--do something kind for yourself. And most of all keep reaching--we do care.

dps