ty Christina86

ty FooZe

yep the give it back voice would be there - give it back cos you dont deserve it - one of the things that I had to do for homework was write out a letter to my family who had said things and done things and I .... it was very hard - because putting it on paper menat I had to admit it happened - yes I know how nuts that sounds - it was real - it did happen I know that - but i have never really admitted it to myself or the damage it caused.... I let it cause.... to me.

I have done that now - the letter that is - the accepting s still processing - it still hurts - but it will get better.... the self destructive voices and the ones that I say I dont deserve anythinng come from that time... and the fact that as a child I accepted they were right..... and still partially do.... working on that....

it feels like im shutting down - withdrawing from.....dunno ...everything...