((((((((((((( everyone )))))))))))))))))

Thank you all for your hugs and kind words they are greatly appreciated. You guys have managed to cheer me up a bit, I am cherishing this moment of calmness and hope it lasts. I see T Wednesday hopefully she will also be able to help, I think just admitting there is an issue is helping because I try to hide it from my family.
Thank you again I will try to update tomorrow on how I am feeling