"Yeah, I think that's a way to rid myself of her, but maybe too violent for my ease... "

Could be... but you thought it at least once. You felt that rage at least that one time. You need to remember that you aren't expressing the rage and violence to her directly. It could just be that it's what you need to get rid of her "intrusion" into your thoughts and reactions. The more sure you become in your self, the less violent the image can be... or will become. There are times that I will actually smell the old crone around me. All I have to do now is say to myself "Get away from me!!" She's gone immediately. Just because it worked for me doesn't mean it has to work for you, though.

Can't say as I've forgiven her. I thought I had once, but if I think about what she did to many of her grandkids, the anger comes back. I still want to see her at the Great, White Judgement Throne when Jesus sends her into the Lake of Fire!

Anyway... I don't think about her or how I feel about her too often, thank God!!

We all have to do what suits us best.



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