I just wanted to express how I'm feeling right now. For the biggest part of the afternoon I've been slipping into a depression. Right now it just seems like my life has no purpose. I have (had?) a very good female friend, but we haven't spoken to each other in quite a while. We always had a great time together, just hanging out and doing stuff as friends. Last Febuary when we went out to eat, I knew she didn't have any money with her. Yet, when we got to the cashier, I asked her if she wanted me to buy hers. I know she was embarrassed by that question. I'm not sure that I can give a good explanation for even asking it, other than my mind really wasn't where it should've been. I guess you could say that I "space out" a lot. I have OCD and my mind stays rather preoccupied a great deal of the time. Still, this isn't an excuse for what I done. Later, I asked if she would forgive me and she said she did. But the next time I seen her, things had changed. She acted differently. There's more to the story, but that's all I really want to talk about for now.