does anyone else get them? like smells, sights, sounds that remind you of terrible things.. and they just debilatate you for days? like a hairspray that i havent used for a few months - the one i was wearing when i was threatened, when i was in school, when i was made to... do things that i wish i could push back. and i havent used that brand in a while.. and just the smell was painful. i started crying and couldnt stop, i couldnt push it all back.
i think im gonna have to chuck it out... pathetic, i know, but its just something i cant cope with. i cant cope with those memories, not right now.
im going to ask to be put on a low dose of prozac, i think. nothing too severe, and im gonna make sure im watched closely for the first few weeks as i cant trust myself to not do anything "stupid".

supposed to be going shopping with some old friends, im dreading having to talk all day :|.