I talk to t in my head when i'm having a difficult time and can't get ahold of her. I'll imagine what she would say to me to help me, or else i will picture something else she has said or done that helped me feel close to her.

i usually rehearse in my mind what i want to talk about in therapy, but not necessarily rehearsing the actual conversation that will take place.

i recount conversations in my head that have already happened. For example, when a relationship has gone badly, i will go over and over in my head what took place -- many times voicing it out loud --- almost like i'm giving a play-by-play. "I said such-and-such. Then she did X. After that, this happened." In a way, it seems kind of obsessive, and i can easily spend 2 or 3 hours at a time doing it. I think i tell myself the story over and over because i think that by doing that, i will somehow be able to figure out what went wrong, and that it will answer my unanswered questions as to why something turned out the way it did. Usually, it does not work that well, because i come up with different assumptions and possibilities about what it "could have been" that caused the problem. So i am just left with more questions.