THanks Vaarsuvius Well so far I have only gotten as far as getting the blades out of the package. I did call my friend crying and left a messge. I know that I shouldn't cut him out and I don't want to, but I feel like everytime I want to cut, take pills or just having a bad day I turn to him. Ok that may be ok but he has his own life. He is looking for a job and doing things with his wife and all that. Which is fine. But I feel like a burden. I haven't heard from him since Thursday. I know that he is busy and that is ok, but at the same time it makes me feel like i have gone to far. Maybe he was just being nice and now he can't take it anymore.