thank you everybody for your kind support. I could really use it. I recognize that it's not important to diagnose but rather if I find something that works for me (e.g Stop walking on eggshells) then I will use it for as much value as I can...So I dont want to get all academic but this sort of stuff does make me wonder. YOur works are somewhat reassuring that all of these can be present.
I was thinking they could as some things about BPD e.g. wanting to be a child seem also e.g. DID..There's one more thing I wanted to relate that I found out yesterday and has me sort of puzzled and thining about..
My wife told me that when she got her current psych ward (second admission in June) they said the first week she was in a dream like state. For an entire week she did not where she was or who she was...
She has often seemed to behave in this sort of manner at home, especially after her brother shows up. She is very sweet and kind much of the time, almost TOO kind one might say. One might think she is just sort of too much of a saint to be real...Occasionally when she is triggered she gets all foul mouthed on us. It's reall shocking..But it's another subtle persona that I see more of: she just critics everything. OMG it was unbelievable.
I ran out to get milk late at night. Got some at 7-11; "why didnt you get it at Safeay? I thought it was closed.." Goes on and on about this..Arguing over 25 cents?? what the ell?
Then the toater. I put a piece of bread in toaster. "It doesnt go there, it goes HERE" Pts to one certain slot in toaster with an arrow..Like there actually is a special slot when you have one piece of toast...Like it realy matters..
Many stories like this you've probably heard them all. Could she be in some sort of other persona or maybe just in a trance?
But it's hard to tell she possibly slips into another personality very subtley that we dont notice it..Or perhaps she just doesnt recall stuff. I like to think that she really does recall stuff and is just saying she doesnt out of shame, but then again maybe she really doesnt remember.
She has done some really screwy things to hurt me, and I just wonder if this dream like state she was in (I have no doubt she is telling the truth about it) relates to other behaviours the past couple of years and to DID..
Thanks for any support. I got to see my Therapist yesterday so I am trying not to over analyze it but any thoughts please feel free I guess it helps..
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