I feel a very similar pain.

The flu makes you sneeze, food poisoning makes you sick - depression makes you hate, it makes you cry, it makes you hurt, it twists everything up and leaves your head spinning.

Get through another day. Just this day. Wait till tomorrow to deal with tomorrow. But just focus on getting through the next few hours. If you are without hope, keep struggling through the present, do not worry about the daunting future.

x