Usually sexual fetishes involve something (some inanimate object) that we have associated with sexual excitedness or action.

It definitely shows you are conflicted, considering one minute you want to wear them or fantasize about them, and then the next, you are upset and aggravated about them after you masturbate.

A lot of it has to do with (I would imagine) your feelings and issues of how you feel with the sexual issues.

Believe it or not, I think lots of us (guys and girls) always want to bump in to the guy or girl of our dreams.

I havent had personal obsessions myself, thank goodness, but I understand you are going through some tough, traumatic times.

Would it be possible to see a therapist and work through this?

Best,

Clyde