im not exactly "split" am i though?

so why does everyone keep telling me to see someone outside of here? Because having offline support is important, especially since we're not always able to be supportive and listen. And you get better support from someone who knows you more fully than a person on the other side of a screen.
you dont have to be a t/psych to support someone - thats all i ask from people anymore. You're right... but there are different levels of support, and honestly I feel that everyone could use some actual therapy support to sort themselves out a bit.
if people cant handle giving me that, or dont want to, or whatever, then dont post. others could. others DO. so why keep telling me to?! Because we care about your wellbeing, and only talking about your problems online isn't effective to dealing with your issues - coping doesn't equal healing
ive been seeing them for NINE years.
you really think i want to see anymore? Probably not, which is why you're resisting our telling you to seek help. But we will come across ineffective people who can't help us, you must keep trying until you're comfortable with someone (who can help), enough to work through your problems.
besides that, i already HAVE an appt with some stupid psych who diagnosed me with adhd and other lovely disorders. I don't like being diagnosed with stuff either, I bet not a lot of people do. But perhaps through a diagnosis you can be put in a therapy program or on different medications that would benefit you, and make you a much happier person.