I think I've read those pages about suicide like five thousand times during last 6 years... all of them. Not sure why. Maybe I was looking for this one thing they taught me.
- I don't want to die, I want to live.. but not like this.

Please, don't give up hope bc you CAN and WILL get out of this hole called depression. (((((((bananasarecool)))))))

Be sure to bring good things in focus and spend more time with loved ones talking about things you like. Spoil yourself a little bit! You deserve to be happy!

ps. No, I don't believe in God and this is mutual but I know faith works wonders. Hell is where it is welcomed. So is Heaven.