Treehouse,
What do you tell others? Expressing what your feeling is good. Vent it out here where it can't hurt ya. See what's all in there and then work through it. Your right some of the feelings you are expressing sound like they are coming from those younger ego states. That's OK, isn't what we are learning is to hear them out, and then work through it. Your plan to wait until thursday to cancel your appointment sounds good. Get it all out until then. (((Hugs)))