Thanks Pam....I really appreciate your output....When I posted the question, I thought nobody would answer me back....people will think how crazy I am to think about the same person over and over again....
Well...last night and in the morning I was so sad and felt depressed and couldn't work in the morning....but all of a sudden around 10ish, I felt extremly great and powerful....It was like a window got opened in front of my eyes....same things that you say....He wants to have control on me, and he can't....last night, he wanted me so much, but he wanted me to initiate it....and I didn't...and he gave me a look, a confused look....because he wanted me to say that....and I know if I do it, then he will have the full control of the relationship or whatever...and I'm not signed up for that....He leaves the class exactly the same time that I'm leaving....last night, I saw him, he changed his shoes, but he waited till when I was leaving then very fast he left....then he played the game with me....he pretended that he's leaving earlier than me....so, he left, and I stayed a bit longer talking to my teacher, because I didn't want to follow him...when I went out, I found him staying out talking to another fellow classmate....ha...for sure, he wanted to get my attention....such a player....
I think I let it go for awhile....then I will sign up for Internet Dating....I've tried it before and it didn't work for me, but you never know....and in mean while, I'm trying to make lots of friends for myself....and do good to people....hope that works....I found out when I do good to people, I feel so great and happy....
I love my dancing and I'm getting better....but I don't enjoy clubbing, specially that he's there most of the time....he's in the class too....but class is different....I want to get better in my dancing....and I might take an art class too....and I should do more exercise....ya...meditation is helping me too....
I hope I stay strong and powerful....I know I've done it before and I will do it again.....I just have to take my focus off from him....
Thanks again for your support....You guys are great....I'm so happy to have my syber friends here
with love
Marjan