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Originally Posted by scotlandskye
Why did I just do that? Just took a handful of pills. I'm hoping it fills the void but yet I know it won't. Maybe it will help me sleep and stop my mind! Why do I do it when I know I shouldn't???
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I can't answer the why for you; for me it's going into the darkness and feeling like I don't have a choice. Needing to escape b/c it's all too much. It's not all of you that is feeling that way - it's a part that is in control right now. If you are in therapy maybe you could discuss it. I feel that way and am working on taking steps to comfort myself so I don't do it at such an extreme, so instead of 10 pills I take 5 and try not to have it be so black and white. ]
It takes time, but asking the question is an amazing 1st step.