((((((((((((((((((((( dearest Treehouse!! )))))))))))))))))))))

your post is not selfish. In all that long rant I noticed that you never once mentioned the stress you have been under in recent months with your family events - which are huge - through all of those you have struggled to be selfLESS, not selfISH. And the support of T helped you get through that.

leaving yr appt early, cancelling next one, erasing his messages, I understand all of this - I have been right where you are standing too - but if I could very gently say it, all of this is a form of SI, in a spirit of "I'll show YOU T!!" but it will harm only you, sweet Treehouse; please don't do anything rash. remember (difficult, but important) when you are upset, make NO CHANGE: wait until you are at peace to decide whether you want to make a change.

I am so sorry for your pain. I'm all out of chai but I've got some tropical punch Kool-Aid if you want to share. gentle hugs for you my friend