Some days, I want to go to sleep and not wake up either. I have to force myself to find reasons to go on and I'm only 30. The future seems bleak and endless.

Depression is gnawing, incessant, dull pain; turns my brain viscous, my body to wet cement, my eyes vacuous. Nothing matters, nothing ever did, life is pointless. (this is what depression makes me feel like)

I'm hoping my meds will finally improve my severe depression and keep me from the crippling mood swings. Right now, not much luck on that front.

I'm also sorry if this is depressing. I just answered honestly.

It has to get better. There's no where to go but up. Now put down that shovel.