My words may not penetrate your depression, but I'll offer them hoping there's the tiniest of chances they may:

Teary_me, you matter.
You matter - no matter what you look like.
You matter - no matter what afflicts you.
You matter - no matter what's going on or not going on in your life.
You matter - no matter what you say or not say (although I'm grateful for your posts).
You matter - no matter what, period.