Overload. All of the systems crashed today so now, things are crazy. I want to cry so I keep just putting myself in break after one call for about 5-7 minutes to stay sane and I'm ruining my statistics. I hate that my job really relies on how fast I can do things.

Someone I look up to started a "What am I thankful for" thread.

I am thankful for the ability to calm myself down enough to stand another ten minutes.
I am thankful that my car is in good condition and reliable.
I am thankful that my friend and boyfriend are supportive.
I am thankful for my soft white sheets and pillows.
I am thankful for getting back to borderline regardless of my anxiety.
I am thankful for my Tdoc who cares enough to spend more time with me than I pay for and not cut corners when I need her.
I am thankful that I still have the right to choose how my condition will be treated and by who.
AND I am thankful that I'm not crazy like my pdoc and tell my patients that cervical cancer comes from enjoying sex instead of using it to reproduce...WOW.

Thanks for letting me vent guys.