This is not the end, this is the begining of you taking control of your illness and finding the right meds. Its possible that this bad period would have happened regardless of your getting help or not. Its just fortunate that everything is in place now, while you're at your lowest. A problem has been identified with your brain chemicals, the solution isn't going to be overnight. Do take each day as it comes. Keep an online journal or scribble pad by the bed. Drop notes on your mood. There may be the slightest improvement, but unless its documented you might not realise. You may identify worse days or worse times in the day.

Look after yourself, plan some small goals for the day (either to take a walk, catch up with a friend over coffee) its only doing things that'll make you feel like you're alive. If you give in the low, it'll get harder to beat.

Take care of yourself,