Thank you Darkeyes and Nowheretorun

I have thought several times about answering this, but everytime I try I am overcome with too much emotion and gratitude to even keep my thoughts in order to do so.

To All here who are starting over with me......

My name is Deanna, I am 41 and married to the same great guy for 22 years. We have 3 great daughters--one married, one in college and one in high school. And we have 1 grandson who is the absolute joy of our lives who is 3 years old.

I have struggled with depression, I know now for most of my life. The panic attacks started almost 16 years ago shortly after the birth of my last daughter. The agoraphobia and the obsessive thoughts came soon after, with the agoraphobia reaching the point that I have become housebound for over a year now. Though last spring we did have to move out of the farm we were renting back into town--so with the help of a hypno-therapist I was able to do that.

With that under my belt, I was feeling pretty confidant that the agoraphobia was going to end as I could see myself making progress, however, that doesn't seem to be the case as I can feel myself sinking back into it all over again. Very frustrating to be able to recognize it and see it coming and to just not have the energy or the gumption or the whatever to stop it dead in it's tracks!

I came to this board after finding my old support board on Conquer Anxiety had ceased to be, hoping to reconnect with those I had come to love and respect so much there. They are here, as well as many more of you who are equally as wonderful and caring, and I have come to care for all of you also!

Take care and God bless, Deanna