I'll start off by saying that I really like my T. I feel really atached to my her, even needy sometimes...but only when she's not around (for example, when I'm emailing her in between appointments or waiting for her reply). When I'm actually in the room with her though, I don't feel like that or act like that at all. I can't figure out why this happens. Any ideas?

I think that part of me does crave the idea of her, in a really young way. But when she's actually in front of me, I can't get past the idea that we're both adults and it would be very strange to, as an adult, act so young. So I don't. I just wish I could feel as connected to her when I'm talking to her as I do the rest of the time. I get much less nervous in sessions than I used to, but I still can't seem to feel things in the moment with her.