Wow, notme, I am so there right now! I just asked my T this week how to access my child self because I feel like I'm only showing up as my adult self in sessions, and I want to feel emotions that my T said are connected to my child self, but I'm not letting myself feel them in the room with T. (I'm starting to feel them outside of therapy, though.) My T said I need to be "unreasonable" more in therapy - basically, that I should throw a bit of a temper tantrum like a child if my T does something I don't like, such as keep me waiting for my appointment. This behavior was discouraged when I was a child, and now my T is telling me it's okay for me to act that way as an adult? She did say that it's okay "in therapy", though, so I guess I'd better not try it at work. But I do understand where you're coming from - I'm also starting to get attached to my T, something I only admitted to her this week, and it was hard to admit that I was needy to her! But then it was so worth it, because we sat there, just looking at each other and smiling for a bit - a really nice, connecting moment. But don't think it still scares me to show her my younger self! I'm going to have to give it a lot of practice. Good luck!!