Firstly welcome to PC and good that you posted. It is a very frank and honest post. I am really particularly interested in your application of the mindful technique you used in an otherwise nervous situation. I am learning do the same myself so thank you for encouraging me. I have great hope placed in learning mindfulness and I can see some results expecially with anxiety and fear. I simply acknowledge the feelings and thoughts and realise them for what they are without fighting them and then try to let them go and sometimes it works for me. Practice I believe is the key to this.

Paddy