I feel so abashed...to say that I don't expect replies when I know full well that you guys are right there for people in need....I think it was the depression talking, where you cannot believe that anyone could possibly be interested in you and your pain. I'm sorry.

I did talk with my T on the phone and it was ok- he didn't give me the gears about the exercises. He didn't even ask if I'd done them....lol...
but I'm feeling somewhat better now. That voice of self-hatred would have me buried in a pit if I let it, and in the call with my T, I realized that the pit is really not the place for me

so thank you once again!!