(((((amaryllis)))))
Welcome to PC. I hope you will find lots of support here and feelings of acceptance. Thank you for sharing with us. I hope you get to feeling better soon. Sorry you are feeling so low at this time. Many here can share in your feelings. Know we are here to support you and that you are never judged for what you say or feel. There are so many wonderful and loving people here that understand.
I am glad you joined and hope you will look around and feel the safety here. Know you are not alone and that we care. Sounds like you are doing a good thing for yourself through the ACT. It sounds like a very positive thing. It is a wonderful thing you do for the orphanage, and elderly people.
I look forward to continuing to get to know you. Thank you for posting and I look forward to hearing more from you. I send you good thoughts and gentle hugs if that is okay.

dps