Not sure if this is where this goes, but I am really feeling like my life is over. I feel like such a failure, horrible, mean person. I don't deserve anything, and my husband and son don't deserve a mom and wife that can't be there for them the way I should be.

I am even trying to run away from my T. He has been so good, but now that we are in some tough stuff, I just want to quit. I can't take all this anymore. All I do is think about the next session and how much of a fool I was in the last one. I don't even know if I trust him anymore. I certainly don't trust anyone else to share my deepest darkes secrets too.

When will all the hurt, pain, agony, feelings of guilt and shame end??