Hey Dwayne,

Its funny how we receive forgiveness from others, as they move forward, yet we have a hard time forgiving ourselves.

I like what Marjan wrote:

"Try to stay positive and active, it will pay off...."

You do seem like a caring a good person she would cherish as a friend regardless of how she comes off sometimes. You also type/talk well, how you expressed how you feel as well to her as you have here? I sometimes find that when complications arise, I am someone nervous to talk directly to the person involved, yet I can speak so clearly and logically to others. Sometimes I pull it all together and approach the person with all I have felt and it makes a world of difference.

Have you expressed things like:

"Before this happened, she was my main social life. Since then, I've reestablished contact with old friends and I'm doing other things. But it just isn't the same without her."

You wrote allot of other things that I just cant see someone not taking to heart and realizing how special you are to each other.

I may be wrong,

Good luck

0ldsoul