I don't know why this is such a hard decision for me. I want people to know what I have lived through, partly to show that it can be lived through and you can continue on, and just on the other hand cause I need a hug, I need someone to give me a huge hug and tell me that its ok to still be messed up by this. no one has given me that answer all need is someone to show some sort of emotion towards me and what I have been through and then maybe I can finally cry about it and get it out of my system