I have the intense anger that comes with bpd, it is almost uncontrollable. I have difficulties with people I work with because when something makes me angry or I am in one of my bad moods everything around me makes me mad and it is noticable even if I do not say anything. I am sarcastic when I am in these moods and if someone makes me mad I label that person as crap. It is almost like I send them to the dungeon so to speak in my minds eye. Another problem I have is impulsivity and it causes me alot of pain. I have quit jobs by just walking out and not giving a darn that I did not have another job, I will resort to pills, pot or alcohol to escape the intense anger I feel inside. I am often ashamed afterwards of how I blow up when angry or my sarcasm which I do not hide. I do not do the cutting and I am not suicidal but most of the other descriptions I do have. I have not found a pdoc that deals with borderlines, so I do alot of self help reading and these social sites. Just remember you are not ALONE, there are people that do understand every feeling you have.