I am coming to the conclusion that I am a binge eater. I will eat and eat and eat. I am also a huge snacker. When I was younger and all through high school I was a dancer and I had class about 6 days a week. At that time I could eat junkie foods and everything bad for you, because I would work it all out and maintain a "good" weight. I was very happy with my body and how I looked. I am also THEE PICKIEST EATER. I weighed 120 back then. I then of course went to college and gained the freshman weight. My first semester of college was aweful. I hated the school, hated my classes, and professors and got into this massive fight with all the friends I had made. I sat in my room constantly and just ate. I was so unhappy. I got out of the school and started to get active again but I can't get back to a happy weight. I am 5 feet and I weigh 140. According to all the BMI calculations, I am overweight. I hate the way I look and take a LONG time getting ready everyday cause everything I put on I hate.

I feel like I can't stop eating. I got a gym membership and I go for like 3 days, then stop going. I have started, two days ago, to try to eat only 3 meals a day, with no snacks, and if i NEED a snack I can only have one a day. So far so good, but I'm afraid to weigh myself. I used to go to Mcdonalds at least 3 times a week, but I have cut that down drastically to maybe twice a month. I just feel like eating gets the best of me and when I try to get to a good weight I do good for a week or so, then downfall back into my terrible eating habbits. I feel like I have to eat even when Im not hungry. I eat when I'm bored, I eat if I see other people eating, I also hide eating from people if I know they will say something to me about what I am eating.

I hate trying new foods when they are pushed on me. I don't mind trying things I just want to try them when I WANT TO, not when someone else is pushing me.

sorry this is so long.. this whole thing is starting to take over my whole life and I can't take it anymore! it makes me depressed when ever i think about it and i get really down on myself when i eat now.