possible triggers

I didn't wanna post this in my other thread, about my brother, cause he's just not worth it.

I received a call today; appereantly my father died this morning.
I'm not sure how or what cause they either didn't say or it didn't register in my head but well... I just said 'mooi zo' and hang up the phone. Wich means something like 'thats great' or 'good riddance' i guess.

For everyone who doesn't understand my attitude towards my father; he was a horrible man and even though i don't wish anyone's death, I can't say i'm not relieved.

I'm not sure what I feel right now .. but no sadness that's for sure.

So why am i even typing this post if I don't care.. well I don't know, I just wanted to .. share i guess. Let it out or something. I don't know.

Today was a horrible day. Some things happened at school wich no, I don't wanna talk about, but maybe there's some justice in this world after all. One less thing to worry about you know?

Lucas