I can understand how you feel. My way of "getting" involved with life was to find a job. But I'm on a medical leave for 6 weeks andI have had only 3 people out side my family even call or stop by to see how Im doing. (3 weeks now) I have always thought of alone and loney as 2 different things. I have been lonely and alone with people around and with out. I know when Im in a deep depression they seem even worse. I actually like to be alone then I don't have to answer questions or talk or be something Im not. But the lonely is like now when I could use a friend to say " Hey how are you feeling?" or " let's go out and do something for a while". Even my husband doesn't say the last part. I have to if I want us to go out. And I hate to feel like Im always the one suggesting to do something other than camping. My escape into being part of the crowd was drug and alcohol when I was your age, though I don't suggest that. Sometimes you have to make the first few moves... find a ?church? group of young people to get involve with, something that you have an interset in. I don't know your demographics so I don't know what may be available for you. Make a list of things you are interested in and then see if there are clubs or groups that you may find an involvement. I don't know if this has helped any. drop me a note, let me know.