Marjan
I'm really trying I haven't heard from since this afternoon when he sent the email telling me we shouldn't talk so much and just talk before we go to bed. That's why I'm on here trying not to call him. I've been kind of busy today.( My son had a soccer game, he scored three goals. Yeah for my little athlete!!!)
I'm just so afraid that I messed it up especially last night cuz I just kept trying to get him to talk to me when all he wanted to do was go home. I didn't want him to. He slept in my recliner til 4 am when he finally came upstairs. But I couldn't stop crying and I didnt want him to leave. Really I just wanted him to hold me and tell me we would be okay. I know I'm pitiful. He says maybe my drug is needing to be hugged and kissed and cuddled, and that in the beggining just one hug is enough but then the longer it goes the more I need, and that's my addiction. That what he does I don't notice because I just keep needing more of it to fill my addiction. I just wanna feel happy and cared about. And I need it physically so I feel it mentally.