so....if you keep thinking about losing him, then that will happen....
don't worry....he will come back to you....
well...you showed him how needy you are and how much you need him, and he's comfortable knowing that he can do whatever he wants and still come back to you.....
keep in your mind that your emotions are not you, they are yours....you are master of your emotions, you got to use them....right now, each time you think about him, just shift your thoughts to something else....
you haven't lost him yet....it's just a day or so....probably it gets longer....be paitient, it will pay off at the end....
I used to be like you....but now, I understood how useless all these behaviours are....you want him so much, but you can't have him by crying and clinging....as much as you cry, try to convinece him or cling to him, he will go further from you....so, just stay strong and if you want him, then don't do all these.....
do you know how to meditate....try it....it will help you to cool down....do you have any fate, you can pray....
but try to take your mind away from him....don't be scared....he will come back to you....and dont' call him...be relaxed....

with love
Marjan